Dreams...

Seriously what is my problem???

The past two dreams that I remember having consists of my mom. The first one, we had a flood and for some reason I was in the car and safe, and I was yelling at her to get in the car. Then I saw her just whisked away, it was very vivid and I do not want to ever watch my mother die. Maybe it was symbolic. Like how I feel like she doesn't listen to me, (not that I bark orders at her to get in the car) Someone told me that if you dream of someone dying, it means that the relationship is coming to an end. Just great really, I already don't have a relationship with my father, and now I might not have one with my mom? I know my mom is a big trigger to me when it comes to my feelings on worthlessness, and my perfectionism. But that doesn't mean I want to end that relationship I just have to find a way to deal with it and she needs to get some education...

The second dream was last night. My sister and I were in the car with my mom driving. I just got out of dance class and my dance teacher called my sister for some reason then we had to stop at CVS. As we were pulling up in the parking lot, my mom almost hit the side-rail. Then she went over the speed bump and when she was coming to a stop, well she didn't really stop, something stopped the car.  My sister and I looked at each other, asking if she was okay, as something just wasn't right with her as shes an overly cautious driver.....


Not sure what to make of these dreams. I seriously do believe that something is wrong with me now...well besides my eating disorder. haha