ED's Turn

This past week I have really been struggling with body image which leads to struggling with actions. I get so upset with myself, because I try, I do, but the second I see that im gaining weight, I freak out and do everything to lose weight and then that fast im back in a cycle that I can't seem to get out of again.

Any way, I figured to let my ed talk for a little bit before it gets out of control again....so here it goes (COULD BE TRIGGERING)

Stefanie,
Why are you sooo damn stupid? These people don't know what it takes to be thin! Stop listening to them! They just want to make you fat, they want to see how stupid you can go with shoveling more and more food down your throat. It's disgusting, repulsive actaully. Let't face it, you will never get rid of me. I'm here, been here, and will continue to be here. Get over it! Tell everyone to back off and let us be. Where were they when all the bad things were going on? They weren't around, I was! If they cared they would of been there. Like me. See you are so lucky that I am a good friend and im waiting for you to come back to your senses.  You know people leave, no matter how much they promise that they wont. But I've been there for everything, start looking at their actions and stop believing every word they say. Don't you miss all the "you look great comments" now your getting "you look healthy" PLEASE you know what that means...it means you are now FAT!!!!! But they wont tell you that so they lie, I wont do that to you. Ill be honest with you, you are fat now! Come on lets get back to the slimming 78 pounds! That's when you started looking good, get back to that and ill help with the remaining weight you would need to lose.  Show them that You do HAVE CONTROL! being so strict with what you eat, gosh people will admire you. Don't you want that again?
Your's always
ED.


Normally, I would write back, but like I said this time I am just going to let ed share his thoughts. But Ill be honest, there wouldn't be much arguing with him right now