Where'd Stefanie go??

Well...this week has been...never a dull moment type of week. If you know me you already know what is going on so I am not going to sit here and think about it and blog about it. Honestly I don't want to think about it. I don't want to face it, to come to a realization that this after all is my life. It always seems to me that the big problems in my life  I can handle, but the small stupid shit I can't. I don't know why, maybe I just like focusing on that more because I know deep down, it means nothing.

Anyway, I was asked a question if I I had the choice would between the two, would I choose to have an eating disorder or cancer...and I hate saying this. I hate it because both are  killers but in the end, I would choose cancer. At least then I wouldn't have these constant negitive, self-hatred thoughts. I know it's a wrong thing to say, but I think it's a wrong question to ask.

I know I wrote before about Laureate and Holy Redmeder cancer center sending me bills, well. I put it off because again, I didn't want to face it, but today I finally buckled down and called my health advocate. Seriously, makes everything so much easier. All I had to do was give them the information fill out some paper work and send it back to them, and they fight it for me. Honestly I told my mom that  I can't handle this without getting stressed and frustrated. Everyone is trying to make everything stress free for me right now. And this def helps with that. Now I just have to wait for the results and hope that it turns in my favor and I don't have to pay...which I shouldn't have to because insurance covered both...so we will hope for the best and see.

Through this tough week, I absolutely came to realize my true friends. Who has my back through thick and thin. And I just want to give a shout out to Trina, who went above and beyond. Sending me a little pick me up gift, constantly checking in with me, hearing me whine about the stupid and not so stupid things,being truthful to me always, opening up to me, and never leaving my side. Seriously girl, you have held me up and kept me together this past week. I can 100% say, without a doubt in my mind, that I have no idea what I would do without you.