My sister is still being an idiot...it's really starting to piss me off. I feel like she has forgotten about me. Two reasons...1. The fact that her husband and her are trying to work things out and instead of getting an apartment together she is STILL moving in with our dad. Her the baby and her husband its like grow up you are about to be a mother and you are moving into dads when you can afford your own place? Just why? She says better schools, and less drugs and better work...hmmm last time I checked we are finding meth labs around here left and right and we are ranked #1 in unemployment. She's doing it because dad is making it seem like she will have it made. My aunt says that she better not go running to her to save her again because she wont do it if my uncle isnt talking to my dad and if im still not talking to my dad. 2. She was up here for a week to visit my grandmom and she completely ignored me. If we didnt bump into her at the hospital I wouldnt have even known she was up here. We used to talk everyday....Lately i have been distancing myself from her. I am hurt by her, and I frustrated with her. She apparently knows because she keeps asking me why I am so mad at her. Today I actually said to her "Because you're being so damn stupid and you are nothing but drama and with everything going on with Mom mom I can't handle it"
Anyway, my grandmom doctor said she is in kidney failure and has a blocked uretha. Her having the catherdor is a permenant thing now. They will change it once a month. She is in a rehab for physical therapy. Though if there is no improvement in 3 days her insurance won't cover it. She has been in a lot of pain the last 2 days. She is cooperating and moving her legs now that is why she is in pain. But it breaks my heart when I go and see her and she says "I didnt know someone could feel this rotten" I am feeding her. She keeps telling me no, but then I say please, or just one, or last bite, etc haha (bad memory is helping this case because this is allowing her to finish the meal) Yesterday she actually tried holding her own drink when I was giving it too her. She did that today too, yesterday she also hugged me. Well tried to, she put her one arm near my shoulder when I kissed her. Yesterday she was also crying. She said she was "sad because she is sad" I think its either because of the pain or because she realized where she is at. Oh haha yesterday she put her hand on my stomach when I was feeding her I was like umm im not the one pregnant haha and today she put her hand on my (non) boob. I was like "mom mom, I love you but why are you feeling me up" She had this huge smile on her face and laughed.
One of the nurses there pissed me off though. I was standing/walking and she pulled a wheelchair to me. I said no, my grandmom doesnt need it, its her resting/dinner time. She then said "No for you, please use it here you make me nervous when I see you walk or stand. You have to be 80lbs dripping wet" NO im not fricken 80lbs im less than that but thanks for making me feel like a fat cow! Later on I was rubbing my grandmoms back and turned to my aunt saying even her shoulders pop out. My aunt said "So do yours and she weighs 30lbs more than you" So I pretty much set myself up for that one.
Oh my mom talked to my therapist. To ask what is best for me. I told my mom that my aunt is triggering and is holding me back. (even today she tells me natural laxatives...why if you know I have/had a problem with abusing them in the 1st place) And they talked, they actually scheduled an appointment to talk more where my mom, denise and my moms boyfriend can talk (kind of annoyed that her boyfriend needs to be involved but if I say no it will be a problem) Denise told her "She needs her family right now, her real family not aunts and uncles." She also mentioned how my aunt is triggering and how she holds me back. So it has been decided that I will be going home. =) I was pretty nervous with them talking, but it turned out in my favor and it helps that I trust Denise (yea denise not my mom) to not say anything I said she couldn't and to tell me everything that was mentioned...
Anyway that is enough of my sob story haha
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