PROOF nobody cares

So I took my facebook down for a few days, as I felt it was pointing out how alone I am. And I also made a point to not to contact anyone unless they contact me. And no surprise, nobody did. They only people who noticed was one friend and my mom and sister. Which proves my point that If I just disappeared not a lot of people would even notice or care. I actaully woke up yesterday crying because of how alone I felt. I had therapy and she says feeling this way is because of my  dad blowing me off again this weekend. Im not sure, I mean I know it plays a part but its not the reason I am just one very very alone young woman who is misunderstood. But on the bright side, I was honest with her about how sucidial I have been lately then she sat there and prayed for me which was a little awkward. That was all she did though, we didnt make a plan or anything in case it gets more tempting than what it is now. Besides her telling me that I really need to take my Celexa (anti-depressants)