Today

Today was a "better bad day" I only purged once and only took two laxatives and exercised.. And I did text my nutritionist like she wanted me to, and she was overjoyed that I'm listening to her. I am very glad that I have a very patient nutritionist and she also had an ed so I dont have to explain myself. So that is always nice. But I feel like I ate way too much today. I actaully bought clothes to not fit me so I would be motivated to lose weight and so far they do fit. Actaully a little big on me. Which is kind of sick, to purposely buy clothes to make yourself fit into them. I seen that commerical about the sizes being sassy and stuff like that and I really think they should do that. haha.

Work was actually good today too, so that always helps with my mood. And I went and hung out with my cousin and made plans for tomarrow before work. It will be nice to not just be stuck in the house. then go to work and come home to bed then do it all over again. So im excited! Finally I have a night where i am not depressed.

My cousin just had a baby too so welcome little Landon Duffy =)


So I thought of my ex today which is never good, and he sent me a message. I don't know what to do. I mean I know I should not talk to him at all. He is nothing but a liar. I feel like a complete idiot. Ok, he was apparent;y A LOT older than what he told me (which I still feel disgusted) and he was married and had 3 kids. I feel like I should of known and I brought it on myself. Something I obviously need to work on, as he was his decision. I don't know  I still take the full blame, as I should have known. He made me lose all respect  for myself. Not that I had any to begin with but this just took everything that I had left =/ He keeps saying things like "time heals all" and " I should never forget my first" Such an ass, really. I kind of feel like if I didn't think of him today he would not of messaged me which is stupid thinking. AHHHH