Wednesday, February 15, 2012

All for nothing.

I've been working my ass off for what???? To move and be with the baby...my only way I can get in the area I want to. As my mom still doesn't want me home. The only way I can get on my two feet and work and go back to school. It was suppose to be an light of freedom, of hope, my motivation...gone. I was on the phone with my sister today and she informed me that if she gets a apartment that I can't move. There is a thing saying im over 18 so I would have to be on a lease which my sister doesnt want because if Im in ed then I need to leave, and because they would be no space....the only way is if they get a house which of course my sister is dealing with medical problems because of the pregnancy and their car broke down now....So for the past hour I have been crying and feeling like I did all this "great work" for absolutely NOTHING. So im a bit devastated and pissed and hurt...I tried cutting and of course, of course the scissors are too dull and wouldn't break the skin. AND Denise has my razor blade...im soo pissed and there is seriously no point in doing so well if I still in the end dont get the life I want...

I am completely heart broken and Im giving up. All I want to do right now is self destruct.

1 comment:

  1. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OvFBikygfjU

    Listen to that. I loves ya

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