Things are a bit crazy and I'm writing this on my phone do lets see if it will actually post...
anyway today has been non stop running around. Last night I found out that my sister is in the hospital. I know she was having issues but timing is really sucking with everything else going on. She could not stop getting sick which is normal for a pregnant woman but not so much when that causes you to get lightheaded and you blood pressure goes up and the heart rate goes down...she has been in since Wednesday the same day as the funeral so with knowing that she didn't want to overwhelm me and revert back to my eating disorder...so she didn't tell me until yesterday which just pissed me off. And create self harming urges -which by the way, i asked denise for my razor blade back ad he said no...i guess that is a good thing because i would have reverted back to that a few times. It doesn't seem fair no matter what they go through they always know if I'm in the hospital but just because I have a mental disease I'm left out of the loop. Regardless it is my sister and I feel like I should always have a right to know....
Anyway, today I had a food allergy which I thought was to mushrooms in breakfast even though when I asked they said there was none, turns out the drink I drank had red dye in it which I am severely allergic to so, we fix that problem to run into another problem it just going to be nonstop today I suppose. I would really like a few mins to be able to catch my breath though.
No comments:
Post a Comment