Aunt Lou

Can I just say I HATE CANCER????

My aunt passed away from cancer. Cancer takes away all the people who shouldn't die. Not saying people deserve to die, but she didn't want to die. Some people do. I think I should have died, not her. And here I am, feeling a tremedous amount of guilt for not going to her funeral, because I was "too sick" Seriously I am sick...sick in the head. Who doesn't go to a funeral because your too selfish?? I do =/  Anyway, she didn't want us to know. Nobody knew she had cancer because she didn't want pity (which people do tend to teach you differently if they know you have a disease of some sort..talking from experience) so nobody knew until her last month with us. And we only knew because she was in the hospital.

She was such an incredible woman .So strong, just the fact that she was dealing with this on her own, had to be extremely hard, to feel alone, for people not knowing or understanding why you are so tired all the time. Last time I saw her, (yup "too sick" to see her in the hospital too) was at her house. She was full of joy. Had this relaxing water fountain that she was excited about. And she let me pick something of her's to keep. And I picked this bunny stuff animal, dressed in green. Well the dogs here thought it was a new toy and I FREAKED OUT. luckily it wasn't ruined. That's all I have from her. That's it. Just this silly stuffed animal to remember this incredible amazingly strong woman.

Anyway, tears are rolling. I just wanted to say, I HATE cancer, and
I MISS YOU AUNT LOU <3 I hope you rest in peace I LOVE YOU!