My life

I wanted to do something with my life. All these years, I had dreams of going to college and getting my degree...Im 22 now, and I only have a year of college done, because of my stupid eating disorder making me go on medical leave and not getting approved to go back. i feel stuck. I made nothing of my life. 22 years of waste. I WANTED so badly to do something. I want my degree. I want to get married. have kids. have my own place. be able to drive. But everything is connected and it looks like i won't be able to get any of those things. Like I won't be able to drive if I have seizures, and if I can't drive I cant go to school and get the job i want to pay for my own place, and who wants to marry someone like that? I want my own place to be on my own to do whatever I GODDAMN feel like doing with my food and weight. To have someone not watching me 24/7. Which I know this is the reason why I can't be on my own, and if I will ever get to that point. Anyway, I honestly feel like my 22 years on earth was a waste. It could of been given to someone else, who actually did something with their life. Funny thing is, I am thinking and feeling this way and im not depressed. I think i just came to realizations, im trying to accept how things will be in a few months to a year. What  I can accomplish and the things I have to let go of. To realize that not all dreams come true.