Joy

I ended up going to my Nutritonist yesterday though I didn't want to because I thought I lost weight...yea didn't I gained 6lbs!!!! SIX POUNDS, how? I am not sure...I did kinda freak out. Which Joy tried to calm me down by saying that was I am not actually that weight, and its a good thing and when I purge so much there is a fluid shift I asked her if she promised that and she said "I can't promise, I have seen this before though and when you are not purging  I will be able to better predict your body" =/ I just dont get it. It's pissing me off too. Which I tell her I want to lose and she says "Honey you have nothing to lose, your low, and I am worried about you medically" I said, "Well I think I can afford to lose some, but okay" haha So that kinda of turned into "No you can't" "yes I can" thing for about 5 mins. She said my goal weight is crazy to think about getting there, when I told her I would like to lose 15 more and then I will be good, then I can stop. She said yea until you get there and want to lose 5 more and 5 more.

Then I tell her that I have  had a headache for the past two days (now three) where its to the point where I might not go into to work. I bend my head down and it makes it a lot worse and I bend a lot at work I told her I took Tylnol (which I dont take meds at all because i dont know if there is calories in it so you know im in pain) and Joy said that it wouldn't help...she overreacted. Said it was either dehydration and was asking about my urine color. Or low blood sugar. Why can't it be just a headache, why does everything have to go back to ed. Why cant a headache just be a headache???

Then I told her how I am moving in a few months. She wasn't so happy about that. Says I can't stop my treatment. As I told her when I move I will get a new therapist as everyone is really pushing for that, but I think I can go without a nutritionist as I am not listening to her anyway. She said it takes time. Sometimes it takes a lot of time to start doing it. I know you hear me, and understand but ed gets in the way. So She said she knows some good nutritonists down where I am moving then she also suggested me seeing her once a month (which is cut back as I am seeing her once a week right now) I just looked at her. I am sorry I like you, but no way in hell am I going to 3 hours there for a half an hour appointment to drive 3 hours back home...just not happening.