Today was another unproductive day. I really don't know what is going on with me, it seems like I can't even keep my eyes open. Im trying to fight against it but before i know it im knocked out again. Well I guess I do know why, but I refuse to admit it. lol
I talked to my sister today, and we were talking about the baby, considering my circumstances, I won't be the godmother. But they were asking about names and they set the girls name at Adrianna and the boys they are still thinking about. But my sister says she does love the name Adrianna, however she wants to name the baby after me if they do have a girl =)
Today was a very trying day. All I did was sleep and I am still exhuasted. I am very weak today, I wanted to get a shower but my aunt didn't trust me in there alone so she sat in there with me and once I stopped responding she knew I fell back asleep. Luckily, my aunt is a smart one and told me to get a bath not a shower. Which was a bit awkward when she saw my body, noticed just how much I am struggling as im not in my layers of clothes. And it was uncomfortable for me. Well I woke up to her grabbing my arm trying to wake me back up, her saying its okay I got you, told me to hold on to the side while she washed my hair. I know I get annoyed with her at times, but today I realized just how much she cares. I am not her kid or her mom and here she is washing me. I feel so helpless. Everyday activtives are starting to get hard. For christ sake I am 22 years old and no longer take my own shower. Hopefully, its just today or the past few days and this will go away, this is quite embarrassing and I dont want people to see me like this =/
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