Sunday, January 1, 2012

"Giving up on you"

So I feel like a lot of people are giving up on me. Like everytime I turn my head.

It was brought to my attention how Joy wants me to focus on having "better bad days". I thought it was to help me through this process. To make me feel better knowing that I won't wake up one day and be fully recovered. To just expect it to happen.(which I still think this is how it should happen for me-yup just for me, everyone else i know has to work at it everyday) Well according to this one person, it's because, "They are giving up on you". So I was in a bit of a shock when they said that. I know you are telling me how it is, but what if that isn't what it is? Is that suppose to make me feel better? To know that how i feel is true? If how I feel is true, than...ed enough said?? haha. I am so confused. I mean i would like to think that what I think is true. But at the same time, if it were true than im screwed. If it is true than I am fat, ugly, stupid, ungrateful, fat, etc

So I am offically confused more than ever and I'm sure I got my readers (whoever you are) confused with me now haha

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